The Food Porn Theory

This essay was revised from its original copy originally written on April 16, 2015. We love food. We love to eat, get full, and do it all over again. Nothing will ever extinguish the basic human necessity known as eating. With that said, the way we approach food culture now is far from a necessity;…

Meal Prep Sunday!

I’m in the kitchen a lot. Especially now during quarantine. I balance work, exercise and my Classy Nerds endeavors like everyone else balances their respective daily lives. Something I’ve learned to also balance over the years is meal prep. I would much rather get my meals planned and out of the way at one time….

It’s Not a Birthday Wish, but I’d Like it to Come True Anyway

My birthday is today. Reflecting back on the year there have been more down than ups. Failing mental health, a proper diagnosis, and a rocky reconstruction took up most of the year. This includes failed relationships and loneliness becoming my only friend while on a promising road to recovery.

Starting Over

I stopped writing about my days of anxiety; I got depressed. The redundancy of long dragging days waiting to go back to work trapped me. Pretty soon I was consumed by a huge dark cloud of anxiety and sadness. I couldn’t do anything, including writing over and over about how depressed I was. So I…

30 Days of Anxiety: Day 9

It’s only been nine days of writing. It feels like a month, but I’m not long-term conditioned for anything. You’d know that if you saw how easily I get winded from just walking.

30 Days of Anxiety: Day 8

Today I’m supposed to focus on two negative thoughts that I don’t want anymore, and what I can do to let them go. This one is a hard one, because sometimes it feels like my mind is nothing but a library of negative thoughts by category. The two that come to mind are thinking that…

30 Days of Anxiety: Day 7

It’s frustrating when you know that you can’t see your therapist to calm you down until after the new year. It’s a challenge to yourself to manage to keep your thoughts level and to find another safe outlet in between sessions. I’m at that wall where I need to talk to someone but I don’t…

30 Days of Anxiety: Day 4

Today I will take a break all to myself by doing cardio because it helps regulate my brain chemistry. It was an up and down day, or I should say it backwards rather. I went back to work…temporarily. I misunderstood “Submit paperwork Friday” for, “Submit paperwork and come back to actually work Friday”, and I…